Sathya gets admitted tomorrow

So, Sathya is going to get admitted tomorrow for his surgery and I am already a bundle of nerves.

I was far better last time over. Is it because I didnt know what to expect or how much it would hurt. Or is it worse this time as I cannot be with him, take care of him every minute.

I know I am being very selfish here, but the next few days seem like mountains ahead!